Distorted feeling of pleasure

"the ground shakes, under my feet/Wish I could feel her fragile skin/Drowning alone, forgive my sins/Her blinding eyes fill the air i breathe"
So i wish i could ignore this utter feeling of desperation. This darkened atmosphere sends shivers down my spine... I'm shattering my lips while healing my blackened lungs, contaminated, rotten by smoke from your lustful, bitter mouth.
The scent of revenge has taken my blood, my hands shake as write this pathetic love-letter to you.

Just to set things straight: I'M NOT YOUR FUCKING TOOL... I'M NOT YOUR DECOY... Not even your fucking set of marionettes.
you can't own me. You can't control my thoughts, nor my reactions when i feel you close to me. -I'm lying... You can control what i feel.

"as your soft and cold skin pierces through my bones/my brain strikes and then falls apart/i can't manage that joy in me... The carnal desire is bigger than anything... I want to possess your heart, your flesh, your dreams, till there's nothing left - i will consume you.

Pathetic, my love... Isn't it? I can't even cry now, this deep, long-lasting taste of loneliness got me used to this feeling, i still can pretend my mind is not wandering and wondering forever.
A truth: I want to die... Cause you stole my last breath and now even a little atom of oxygen could break my body down, girl.

Slit my throat with your razorblade... Laugh as hard as you please, take my life and cut my lips for the last time, because i need to taste you.



"so now, let's lay amid the shadows/ just sleep beneath the cross/ Your skin will be my haven/my head will soon explode."



But losing my head means nothing, you silly sausage, i wanted you so much that i can't feel another skin... You blocked all my senses... So i couldn't want anyone but you.

my bed feels like quicksand
I can't sleep - bite my neck
Hold Me - Kill Me
Even though i knew it was a lie - Lick my wounds and let me feel your lips asphyxiating me.
Hold Me - suck my blood...
Or go and leave me to die - Give Me Eternal Sleep.

PRAY FOR ME, YOU SINNER
i will find you in hell.

. ....... ... .. ... ... .. ... .. fuck off, i feel Great today.


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